My heart is tired and weak,broken inside and out,my heart is afraid, and suffered, it cries and mourns,and never speaks it's pain,My mind is becoming angry because of the suffering in the heart,my body is being weekend by the stress of the confusion of my heart and mind,my spirit some times separates itself, to pray for my heart mind and body, I morn who I was and who I wanted to be,who I was meant to be,before I ever had a chance it was taken.So I morn.But yet I live....
I'm feeling tired of feeling,pretending I'm ok and strong, when I'm falling apart inside,I pretend to be happy,for my kids. im tired of fighting battle after battle when I really feel like giving up.
It's weird,I'm afraid to go to sleep because of nightmares, Afraid to wake up,to see what tomm holds,I feel like I'm breathing but not alive....
Sometimes I am fogged by my own depression and anxiety that I don't feel I am giving the best support I can to other suffering. Especially the ones I truly love and care for....
Is anyone afraid of going to sleep? Last night i felt so scared to fall asleep. So i stayed up half the night. Even after taking my trazadone amd a Xanax. Sigh. It sucks....
I'm feeling tired of feeling,pretending I'm ok and strong, when I'm falling apart inside,I pretend to be happy,for my kids. im tired of fighting battle after battle when I really feel like giving up.
It's weird,I'm afraid to go to sleep because of nightmares, Afraid to wake up,to see what tomm holds,I feel like I'm breathing but not alive....
Sometimes I am fogged by my own depression and anxiety that I don't feel I am giving the best support I can to other suffering. Especially the ones I truly love and care for....
Is anyone afraid of going to sleep? Last night i felt so scared to fall asleep. So i stayed up half the night. Even after taking my trazadone amd a Xanax. Sigh. It sucks....
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